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You've Got a Fast car, I want a ticket to anywhere

You know when you find a song and it's so incredibly perfect for your mood or what's going on in your life at that moment you play it over..over.. and over...
..and over?
You feel as though you'll never get sick of it, you just want to blast it in your room and you only wished it were socially acceptable to sing it in public? I'm in one of those right now.

I've been in my "Kids" and "Electric Feel"by MGMT phase, "bedrock" by lil wayne phase (definitely needed to get some in this phase), "Begin again" by Colbie Caillat phase. I get in my Michael Buble phase and, embarrassingly enough, I definitely went through a huge "nasty girl" by Nitty phase (that one is embarrassing - this did not reflect my mood, it's just so. damn. catchy..in a raunchy kind of way.) Two weeks ago I couldn't stop listening to "Need you now" by Lady Antebellum. Last week it was, "Just like heaven," the Tristan Prettyman version - I absolutely love this song, I'm kind of still in that phase.

This week it's an old one, though. I can't stop listening to Fast Car by Tracy Chapman.
It's a song about two people clawing their way to a better life and risking everything just because they have nothing to lose and nothing to prove - they're just living on a feeling. It reminds me the world can be a cruel, complicated place filled with disappointments and struggles, but if you just have one other person who stands besides you, who just understands you, then you'll be just fine. It's that one person who understands you that gives you the feeling you can be someone.

It's a combination of wanting to just get in a fast car and drive anywhere and her raspy, lazy voice that gets me every time.

Love deeply and live passionately; I'd rather hurt than feel nothing at all
katie

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